Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Craws, Forgiveness, and Rat Poison

Most clichés or axioms make sense to me, and they probably do to you as well. “Barking up the wrong tree” means what it says, right? A hunting dog has mistaken where its prey currently resides. “Best thing since sliced bread” doesn’t take much for us to understand, correct? If you have ever purchased unsliced bread you know the greatness of being able to grab a piece without getting out a knife and cutting board. For something new in one’s life to be as good as that great invention means a lot. However, there is one adage that I get, but until today I did not fully understand.

“Wow! That really stuck in my craw.” I do not remember the first time I heard this phrase, but it has always stayed with me. This in and of itself is somewhat ironic because this idiom means something that we cannot get over easily. Of course, like all good expressions there is something fascinating behind it.

Robert Hendrickson wrote about the phrase “stuck in my craw” in the Encyclopedia of Word and Phrase Origins.  The craw, as you may already know is that first stomach of a bird where predigestion happens. However, as Hendrickson put it, “Hunters centuries ago noticed that some birds swallowed bits of stone that were too large to pass through the craw and into the digestive tract. These stones, unlike the sand and pebbles needed by birds to help grind food in the pouch, literally stuck in the craw, couldn't go down any farther. This oddity became part of the language of hunters and the phrase was soon used figuratively."[1] So, now that we know the root of this phrase, what is it that sticks in your craw? What is it that you cannot easily digest? What do you have a hard time forgiving someone else of doing to you or to others?

Intoday’s Gospel reading we heard something very challenging for those of us who like to hold grudges. The way that we forgive others is the same way we will be forgiven. Jesus’ parable about the indebted servant really sticks in my craw, not because it annoys me, but because it stops me in my tracks. If I keep holding on to something that someone has done against me, if I am focusing on those sins committed against me, then I am forgetting the truth that God forgives me of a much greater debt that I myself have committed. Having to continue to digest this story, though may be a continuing blessing in my life and our lives.

Every time we gather together we can quite easily call to mind the story of the ungrateful servant. For at each service we pray together the Lord’s Prayer. In that prayer we utter the line, “Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us.” Jesus both in this prayer and in today’s parable links together our forgiven-ness and our ability to forgive others. Of course, God forgives us first, but if we live in a state of holding something against others we are intentionally stunting God’s graciousness. We are living as stagnant water instead of living waters. We are plugging up God’s grace from flowing totally through us.

You may also know of another colorful expression that deals with this subject of forgiving others as we are forgiven. The noted author Ann Lamott in the book Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith, wrote, “Not forgiving is like drinking rat poison and then waiting for the rat to die.” Something awful happens when we do not do the hard work of seeking to reconcile relationships with those who hurt us. Like the servant in today’s story, when we do not release the debts we hold against others, we bring this wound upon ourselves. As difficult as it can be to forgive those who hurt us, we must remember the abundant grace that God gifts us in saying we are forgiven of our sins.

All this being said, forgiving those who have truly harmed you may stick in your craw. Jesus though calls attention to this in today’s parable. After the one servant—who had been forgiven 10,000 talents, which if earning minimum wage would take someone roughly 20,000 years to make—came to his fellow servant—who owed him 100 denarii, which would take roughly a third of a year to earn—the second servant did not expect his debt to be forgiven. In fact, he pleaded with him saying, “Have Patience with me, and I will pay you everything.” Forgiveness as Jesus exemplified in this parable does not mean not remembering what one did to incur this debt, but rather to recall how much greater God’s forgiveness has been with us, and to act accordingly as others seek forgiveness with us.

The longer we continue to swallow the rat poison the longer we will feel toxic ourselves. Forgiveness does not always come easily. What people do may very well stick in our craws. However, we are called to know that God forgives us first and more abundantly than we deserve in 2,000 lifetimes! As we trust in the way that Jesus shows us may we continue to pray, “Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us.”






[1] Encyclopedia of Word and Phrase Origins by Robert Hendrickson (Facts on File, New York, 1997).

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