Those
hardest moments of life often come when we look at something happening right in
front of us and we just cannot stand to let it happen. The slow decline of a
loved one’s health, the dissolution of a cherished friendship, moving to an
unfamiliar place, losing a desired job, or many other unexpected events
challenge us to say things like, “Heaven forbid!” We struggle as a species with these big
transitions. Well, how much more did Peter fight back when the person whom he
had just realized was the Messiah now spoke of his impending suffering and
death?
This
week’s Gospel lesson challenges us to see characteristics that we so rarely
want to put together. Son of the Most High God meant Messiah or Savior or one who came to put things
right. This person was the hope of an entire people. This person would have properly come in
riding high, garbed in conquering armor, and belayed by the cheers of the
powerful elite. To associate this champion with suffering and death would have
been so abhorrent as to cause one to stop dead in his or her tracks. Peter
indeed could not wrap his mind around a suffering savior, a maligned messiah,
or a dying Jesus because that is just not how things were supposed to happen.
At
our staff meeting this morning a colleague commented about this reading that we
seem to get Peter wrong. We want to make him the bad guy, she said. And, to
tell you the truth she is right, and we are frankly wrong. We want to make Peter
into the guy who is making the big mistake, but as I put myself in his shoes I
find myself saying, “God forbid it! You cannot die! This cannot be happening!” I become a stumbling block just like Peter was. So knowing this what do we do? How do I un-block myself?
In a
vacuum it is quite easy to say that we ought to roll with the punches of life.
We may hope that when we come face-to-face with a shocking realization of
death, loss, or transition we will easily adjust. Somehow though, I believe I
will always be a little bit like Peter in these moments. He did not want his
teacher, his leader, and his friend to suffer or die. He had found a place
where his life was most alive, his soul was awakened, and his spirit felt on fire,
and now this was all to come to a crashing halt with the death of his dear
Jesus. Obviously, he was upset! Of course, “God forbid!” In the mess of life
though, how do we keep trusting God? How do we keep following Jesus?
Perhaps
the how is not the best question. We all will follow Jesus in our own way. In the darkest moments it will be so, so difficult, but there is another question worth asking before we wonder, "How?" We
must go first to the why question. Why are we following Jesus? Even though we
know that death came knocking even at our Savior's door? Why follow the Messiah who dies? I think strangely the suffering, Cross, and death of Jesus are preciously why we do
follow him. We follow him because we know that even in death Jesus will go
with us. Our Savior willingly took on death, not so that we could avoid death, but so that we would not experience it
without him. Jesus walked before us and walks with us into suffering and pain
and loss and transition and death. Is this not the Messiah we want, the one who goes with us?
A
suffering savior does not make sense in the ways of this world. Society craves
power and one-up-man-ship. Culture strives to outrun death. Our faith calls us
in a different direction though. We are called to walk assuredly in the direction of
suffering and loss and even death because that is where Jesus walked and that is where Jesus
is walking. We may start with “heaven forbid it!”—and that is the most human of
responses—but on the other side of that we are called to say, “Not my will, but
yours be done.” For we are called like Jesus to take up suffering and
death as we take hold of our own crosses. Then, and truly only then, on the other side of that cross and death will we find resurrected
life!